this is me trying - Taylor Swift

Written by：Taylor Swift/Jack Antonoff

© 2020 TASRM Publishing, administered by：Songs Of Universal, Inc. (BMI), Sony/ATV Songs LLC / Ducky Donath Music (BMI)

All Rights Reserved. Used by Permission.

Produced by：Jack Antonoff/Taylor Swift

Recorded by：Laura Sisk at the Kitty Committee Studio (Los Angeles, CA), Jack Antonoff at Rough Customer Studio (Brooklyn, NY) and Laura Sisk and Jack Antonoff at Electric Lady Studios (New York, NY) and Conway Recording (Los Angeles, CA)

Assistant Engineering by：John Rooney and Jon Sher

Mixed by：Serban Ghenea at Mixstar Studios (Virginia Beach, VA)

Engineered by：John Hanes

Mastered by：Randy Merrill at Sterling Sound (New York, NY)

Live Drums, Percussion, Programming, Electric Guitars, Keyboards, Organ, Bass, Background Vocals by：Jack Antonoff at Rough Customer Studio (Brooklyn, NY) and Electric Lady Studios (New York, NY) and Conway Recording (Los Angeles, CA)

Saxophones, Keyboards by：Evan Smith at Pleasure Hill Recording (Portland, ME)

Strings by：Bobby Hawk, recorded by Lorenzo Wolff at Restoration Sound (Brooklyn, NY)

I've been having a hard time adjusting

I had the shiniest wheels

Now they're rusting

I didn't know if you'd care if I came back

I have a lot of regrets about that

Pulled the car off the road to the lookout

Could've followed my fears all the way down

And maybe I don't quite know what to say

But I'm here in your doorway

I just wanted you to know

That this is me trying

I just wanted you to know

That this is me trying

They told me all of my cages were mental

So I got wasted like all my potential

And my words shoot to kill when I'm mad

I have a lot of regrets about that

I was so ahead of the curve

The curve became a sphere

Fell behind all my classmates and I ended up here

Pouring out my heart to a stranger

But I didn't pour the whiskey

I just wanted you to

Know that this is me

Trying

I just wanted you to

Know that this is me

Trying

At least I'm trying

And it's hard to be at a party

When I feel like an open wound

It's hard to be anywhere these days

When all I want is you

You're a flashback in a film reel

On the one screen in my town

And I just wanted you to know

That this is me trying

I just wanted you to

Know that this is me

Trying

At least I'm trying